Kerrplease, you're not alone mate. Lots of people have had rough starts and don't have a basis for a strong sense of self.
Nothing like that stuff is easy.
But you brewing a beverage that you enjoy is something brilliant. Because it is way more than just the drink you make, it's the journey.
And while there may be a few of us who are keeping the chat up with your ginger beer efforts, there are loads of people who are watching on who reckon you're absolutely kicking goals.
Besides, when you reckon your ginger beer is ready, I'd like to send you some money for 'postage' and maybe you can post lagerfrenzy and I one of your brews for some spring tasting notes!
You're definitely welcome here!